Growing up in a christian home I've always known who I am on a subconscious level. But this didn't crystallise in my mind until my first trip to Nepal in late 2014.
Sitting on the tour bus our guide (a local Nepali ) was talking to us about his culture and religion. He said many people in Nepal spend time in temples meditating and finding themselves to truly know who you are. Some lock themselves away in temples and monasteries for years often in silence and solitude.
"Some achieve this in a few short weeks, others it takes years and others never fully know the answer to who they are." Our guide said.
I'll never forget thinking, I know who I am! I've always known it!
I praised God with tears of joy rolling down my face right there siting on that bus. And I remember feeling a great pity on those who thought that years of religious devotion to rules, rituals and spiritual practice would somehow bring them to enlightenment.
That evening I penned these words.
Who am I?
I am a child of God
Redeemed by the blood of christ
I know this he has told me though his word
I feel it when he speaks to me through his word & sometimes directly in that still small voice, if I stop long enough to listen
I have no need to empty my mind, shut myself away to find myself
He Loves me
He wants me to be with him
Inspite of my stubborn heart & my empty dirty soul
He cloths me in white and makes me clean
The joy I feel
I am a child of God redeemed by the blood of christ
He died for me
So I could live
My life is not mine but in him I now live
To him my life I now freely give
To serve him as best I know how
But I have not much to give
Lord help me now to trust in you
Melt my stubborn heart to live for you
To shine my light where darkness reigns
For all to see and light the way to you
Forgive my sins for they are many
My stubborn heart
My lustful soul
My wandering eye
My deceitful tongue
My want for things unholy
I dont want these anymore
I know who I am
I am your child
Loved and protected
You call me. Now I must run to you
I cant do anything else but run to your loving arms
And hold on tight
You love me so much that you gave your life
I know who I am....
I am your child
Have you ever felt this way? What did it take for you to see who you are in God's eyes?
Here are a few verses I'd like to share with you as you contemplate on who YOU are and who God sais that you are.